Dean List Award

Assalamualaikum :)

Referring to the title Im so grateful with what Allah has given me.  Basically this is my last semester in my diploma.  Ahhhh cant wait to wrap everything up and pursue my degree.  Freak not, im not an ANC holder.  But still, alhamdulillah.

The thing is not about berapa kali or what, its just me being thankful with all the countless blessings that Allah gives me.  Peeps, I know myself better (aku rasalah).  Aku pon taktau nak cakap macam mana.  People think I struggle like crazyyyyyy like a month before finals I couldnt sleep study drank caffeine every night not taking bath not talking to others and everything.

What people think: (Two days before finals)  She must have started her revision.

What I think:  Umm whats the latest movie on cinema?  Omg Polis Evo must watch must watch.  I mean I cant torture my brain mannn.  It gotta get some rest to perform on finals bla bla bla hehe.

What people think:  Tomorrow got paper, she must have covered all chapters already.

What I think:  Tomorrow got paper, still got time to study tonight.  Umm by the way which handbag will suit me better?  Gotta buy new one before sem break, ya know the "girls should be two things" and whatnot *smirk.

Aiyooo.  Thats what happen to me every semester.  Tapi tipulah kalau aku kata tak struggle langsung, because I did.  A night before paper I usually dont sleep.  I used to drank 3 cups of nescafe and ended up demam the next day.  Because I have lots of thing to read and then I started to hate myself.  Why lah I didnt study earlier sigh.

Jadi bila dapat result, aku akan terkejut dan bersyukur sebab aku rasa effort yang aku letak tak cukup for me to deserve that kind of results.

Update:  I've been keeping this post in my draft for so long.  I dah masuk degree baru nak post lol